lonely...

friend: Why are you such a loner?
wins: Because everyone went away to do something.

Am I really a loner? Debatable question. I would prefer to say that I have different facades in different situations. My level of friendliness depends on my current mood status, recent events plus other minute factors.
Sometimes I think that I think too much. huh? haha =D. I pause to take a look at my life - what does people take me for? Am I that nice to be taken for granted?
Problems. They arise for a reason. Whatever reason it is, these problems are just building blocks in making us stronger. That was what I used to believe in. But now...
Why can't things just be the way they are? Simple and without a (hidden) agenda. I wish that I can be that innocent boy I used to be. Growing up is just hard...

I don't need much. I just want to be merry and live this miserable life without regrets.






Times like these are times when I felt you here. Felt the presence of you comforting and consoling me. Telling me that the evils of this world is beyond our power to prevent it. As you comfort me, my heart skipped a beat and a tear rolled down my cheek. I love you.

tea and dinner...=D

I need CHOCOLATE! haha. Met ter at Raffles City. Tried desserts at this cafe - Canele Cafe. Very classy. Almost similar to Bakerin. Was dying to try their macaroons but it was more expensive than Bakerin. Anyway, I am really really flat broke which was why I didn't try it. I need MONEY $$$ *hint hint* =X jkjkjk

Gateaux Chocolate - wins

Passionfruit Italian soda - ter

After much thought, settled for dinner at this hangout which was similar to Cafe Cartel. What a day huh? Eating at cafes/restaurants that are similar to others =X

This is what I had. Tiger Prawn something something. =X

From the picture, honestly it looks okay but after remembering its name Tiger Prawn and the prawn served look like shrimps...I thought it wasn't worth paying $16++. The taste was average. Nothing fantastic but then again, what can you expect from $16?

Spice something something - ter *gosh my memory is lousy =X*

Thankfully I didn't order this. It was exactly what it states - SPICY! Thought for me it was tolerable, I guess if I did order this, I would be drinking water instead of eating.

After that, we still felt hungry and went to Genki Sushi! No pictures. =( but thanks to ter for the treat. Thank you, Xie Xie, Terima Kasik, Nan dri, Domo Arigatogozaimus, Komapsumnida! =DDD!

Outings!

Just some random pictures. Trees outside my window.

Snap shot of Nicole. She got her hair extented! OMG is so LONG! =)

Was at play after that. And finally after so LONG, cam-whored with VERON!

Was being random when I took the below picture

At cheesecake! (Look at Nicole's GORGEOUS hair =X)

Was out on Monday. wanted to get this book but... *hint hint* =X

Had dinner the budget way. Headed down to Novena Square in hopes of finding Korean clothes but alas, I have to be a girl to wear them. Why can't there be more guy shops? Oh well...

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Tuesday 8 Jan

Woke up feeling slightly light-headed. Reached for the clock to stop the alarm. Lay in bed while staring at the ceiling in total darkness. Finally got my strength and walked out to take breakfast. After eating, changing etc. left the house with my parents. Was listening to my mp3 all the way to school. Had a feeling today was gonna be different.
Had my first lesson which ended early. Made way down to the canteen to grab a bite. But I wasn't hungry. It could be due to the scolding by a TSO. But...
I felt my heart became heavier due to recent events. It hardened and turned cold. Soon found myself watching the Korean movie in my phone.
I guess it was always my excuse of using a drama to release the anguish, sorrow and dispair trapped in me. After about an hour of sobbing, I felt much better. =)

*sighs*

When something is within your grasp, interest is lost quickly because there was no effort in attaining whatever you wanted to have.

When we go through 'mountain of knife' and 'ocean of fire' (direct translation) and suffer many setbacks and heartaches...
Finally, things managed to work and life became more meaningful.

But given time, who is to know that we won't get tired/lose interest?







I just need some time to think through matters. But, whatever happens, I pray I won't lose hope. The few days spent in silence, I thought I did feel something. But after that, I felt colder and more miserable. However, I will take the next few days to think. And hope for the best =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Was out on 31st Dec. WOW. everywhere was PACKED with EVERYONE. Started of the day with an 8am class. Was awake by my alarm at 6.30am. Feeling real lethargic and exhausted, took the miraculous beverage called coffee - the same does *one heap tbsp coffee* Perhaps my body is getting used to it which explains why it had little effect. Off to school I went. After the 1 hr lecture at 8am, had 3 hours break before the next lecture. And back home again. Was suppose to get some work done but...
Was planning not to go to Paige's gathering due to certain circumstances but when I was about to take my afternoon nap, the phone saved me from spending NYE by myself. But, I am quite glad it did =)
Paige's friends were superb =p! Though maybe I was just tired which explains my un-friendliness yesterday and the extreme TAK-glam of getting hit my contact solution bottle =X *ouch* but it didn't hurt. Anyway Paige, if you are reading this, get well soon yea and rest well. *hugs*
Did I mention that your friends were superb? haha. Real cool bunch of peeps.
HAPPY NEW YEAR everybody!

Hope you are having a great time and enjoying yourself. Happy New Year! Today is the 3rd day there for you and the 4th day since I last saw you or rather 194 hours since your flight took off. I can't pretend that you are still here. However, on the bright side, you are coming back in 2 days time. Though I don't know the exact timing, I will wait for your call =)

Missing you. It became more pronounced yesterday while I was outside. Kept thinking why couldn't we spend it together? I will wait, but do hurry back. =)